About to Be Induced

After all of the struggles with this pregnancy, the time has finally come for her to come out. As I've mentioned previously, I've been watched for preeclampsia during this entire pregnancy. My doctor has been out of town for weeks and finally returned last week. Before my weekly appointment with her, I had already received a phone call from the office asking me to bring a list of my blood pressure readings. I was hoping that they would talk to me about induction at this point.

The next day at the doctor's office, my thoughts were confirmed and they wanted to take her out soon. They sent me to the hospital to monitor me and conduct a non-stress test to monitor the baby. The performed another ultrasound on her just to make sure she was okay. As I was leaving the hospital, they set it up with the hospital that I would be sent for an induction on Sunday night. I was excited but completely nervous and terrified.

Throughout this pregnancy many people have been giving me their opinions and suggestions. Some of the biggest threads of these opinions and suggestions have dealt with either breastfeeding or delivering her. There are a lot of people who obviously push hard for breastfeeding which is fine because I was planning on it; however, there are a lot of people who are against C-sections or inductions. Now, I completely trust my doctor. If my doctor says hey it's time to conduct a C-section that I would hands down let her make that call. I haven't been doing very well health wise this entire time and an induction seemed like the best choice.

Now am I terrified? Of course. My body technically isn't ready to have the baby and we're forcing it to do it. But, after the now constant hospital stints (three within 4 weeks) I didn't want all these issues to start effecting her. I have to monitor my blood pressure three times a day, take medication twice a day, and really be critical of kick counts since apparently they are much more critical in higher risk pregnancies than non-complicated ones. The amount of pressure I felt to protect her was overwhelming and I'm not trying to complain because I would do this again in a heartbeat, but I didn't want to make the wrong call and risk hurting her because of my stupidity. I would never be able to forgive myself.

So here I am terrified and nervous about what is to come but so excited to finally see her. Finally able to rest a little bit more because my health can no longer effect her. I just want her to be okay. I'm sure I'll feel this way for the rest of my life. In the next 24-48 hours my life is abut to completely change. It's funny how you feel like you've been preparing for this moment the entire time during your pregnancy, but nothing makes it feel more real than an actual timeline. When I walk out this door tonight I'll be coming back with someone else. Everything will be different, but you know what - it'll be amazing. I cry when I think about it because it honestly is an amazing experience.

I can't wait to update everyone on everything once she's born, but for now I just wanted to capture how I feel at this moment.

At the End of the Road

I've got about 2.5 weeks to go until she gets here and I'm anxious and nervous and excited all at once. It seems as if those nine months you have of preparing for their arrival still isn't enough and you're truly never ready for them to come. I guess it'll finally hit me when those first labor pains come and I don't have any other choice but to have her right then and there.

Last week we had a minor scare but it made me realize that this is almost it. I had one of my weekly appointments and my blood pressure was pretty high. High enough where they sent me straight to the hospital. My mom was actually with me this time and I had to remain completely calm as I told her we had to head to the hospital instead of heading home. I knew she was freaking out but she tried to hide it as best as she could.

We get to the hospital and I get into the triage quickly. After a couple hours of monitoring they decide to admit overnight for additional monitoring. During that time I have to start the 24 hour protein in the urine test and non-stress tests of the baby. Luckily she's a little trooper and it seems like this isn't effecting her at all. I did get to see her twice and it seems like she's ready to go lol. She has a lot of hair which isn't surprising since my heartburn is ridiculous. My husband stayed with me overnight and honestly - he was beyond amazing. I know it's a husband's duty to be with you and support you, but I can honestly say my husband did more than that. It almost brings tears to my eyes as I write this because I'm really appreciative of everything he did for me while I was at the hospital. He's not the most romantic man in the entire world (he is romantic but not movie romantic), but he cares about me more than anything else and he really showed it while he was taking care of me during my hospital stay. I love him so so much.

Luckily my 24 hour protein in the urine test showed really good results and so they decided to release me. They put me on medication to control my blood pressure and it seems to be working. I've got my next doctor's appointment with my regular doctor... which I'M so EXCITED about because I haven't been the biggest fan of these standby doctors lol. I'm hoping my doctor wants to induce early due to medical concerns. It's not that I just want her here, it's the fact that I don't want my health to effect her in any way - and the longer I'm pregnant the higher the probability is she could be effected. I can't wait to see her. She's already absolutely perfect.

She's Almost Here!!!

For as good intentions as I wanted to have, I just can't seem to keep up with blogging. Instead I have to catch all of you up with what's been going on. So here we go:

• I'm still on watch for preclampsia but after my last appointment they're not as concerned as they originally were.
• I have major ridiculous heartburn all of the time and it completely sucks. 
• I entered a pregnant lady dance contest and lost.
• Her room is almost done and I can't wait until absolutely everything is done.
• We have our last "baby class" tomorrow and even though I find it annoying, I'm excited and relieved to go. 
• I'm technically on bedrest but can't seem to bring myself to actually rest in a bed; I actually think I'm more active around the house. 
• I have serious carpel tunnel and my hands are numb 90% of the time. 
• I took maternity pictures and LOVED them. I'll post some below. 

As much as I'm looking forward to her arrival. I'm so scared. Scared that I won't be a good parent, scared about how much labor is going to suck, and just scared about taking care of a tiny little human being that can't fend for herself.

I've got 33 days until my due date but I feel like this time is going to fly. For Christmas, my husband and I decided to buy joint practical gifts for each other instead of going our own separate ways for gift buying. Together we bought a professional camera to take pictures of our precious littler girl, a rower to get our butts back into shape, and a Roomba to clean our house so we don't have to!!! Overall, it was a win in our household. I hope that I can learn how to take great pictures so I can post them and show off my mad skills. Hahaha. I'll try to post again before she's born... if not... happy trails until the next post!!!